gratitude

At dinner we were talking about what we're grateful for.  It's a thing we usually do and frequently I'm surprised and delighted by what the boys come up with.  Sometimes we say what the best or worst part of our day was, but usually it's just nice to be thankful.  Thankful to daddyB for working to earn money, thankful for the people who grew the produce on our plates or the animals that died for our dinner, and we always thank the cook (usually me).

Tonight big brother was thankful for his little brother... and the berry crumble that he'd made for pudding.

Little brother said "I'm grateful for mama for being our big home worker."
I had to write it down immediately, it's so nice to be appreciated by a five year old!  I've been reminded this week how much they need me around and how little they still are.  I'm grateful that I can be a stay at home mum, even now that they're both at school.

I do struggle with feeling like it's not enough, like I should find work outside the home to make me a proper contributing member of society or something.  Simultaneously I feel like what I do is so important and I wouldn't particularly want to entrust the care of our two lovelies to someone else.

Being at home means that I have time to bake bread, I can do regular parent help (I get to know the boys' classmates), I can be there for school events and pick them up each afternoon.  It also means B can work his long hours without the stress of finding a babysitter for the boys.  I never get bored at home but sometimes a little lonely if I don't make an effort to get out.  Having no extended family nearby is hard going, I imagine having a Nana or Aunty to call on would be amazing.  There are things I could find to grizzle about but really why bother?  Life is what you make it after all and ours is pretty sweet.

What are you grateful for today?

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